sheepman you need you let it go dude, you took it more seriously than you needed to, you also wrote some stuff on here I was going to reply to until you deleted it, anyway the server has been up and down for various reasons..I've kind of explained before some reasons why its gone down, can you not just accept it for what it is.

Seriously. I am just being a drama queen. I don't think anything other then life and what really happens, could happen.

I just get emotions that run over me of a time and place that is now; its a strange feeling and kind of unrealistic but just to explain; like I just feel like some people being connected here and even how stuff has gone over time just makes me literally think could have been more. But I've got to be real.

Everyones got a life to live; gotta eat some how so I mean yeah but its just my personal feelings I can't let go. Weird to explain how I truly feel as its a bit of a story but its just a place.

Seriously I am sorry and thank you for being patient with me. Its very hard to explain how I feel but I just need to move on; which is weird because I feel like I do but sometimes it comes back around. Such is life.

I mean I forget you are still here and so are others but I just felt like zone was always the place to relate to people. But who knows 😉 I am pretty funny and I don't mean all the stuff I say in pretense; as who knows really. I just make myself believe zone could have been more. I just need to start a new chapter here. 

Sorry for being mean to you; its really just me. I just got some stuff to figure out which life has been getting better for me; so I just need to cool out. Sorry again.